IT'S A NEW SEASON

WOW! A LOT HAS HAPPENED SINCE MY LAST POST TO INCLUDE THE FACT THAT I FORGOT HOW TO GET BACK TO THIS BLOG PERIOD. I KNOW IT SHOULDN'T TAKE A ROCKET SCIENTIST TO DO SO AND I AM SURE THERE ARE MANY ELEMENTARY SCHOOL KIDS WITH BLOGS OF THEIR OWN. WELL, CONSIDERING THE FACT THAT I WAS HAVING AN EXACERBATION (FLARE UP WITH THE MS)DURING THE TIME OF STARTING IT, I THINK IT IS WELL THAT I REMEMBERED I HAD TYPED THINGS FOR A BLOG PERIOD. THANK GOD THAT I AM BETTER AND I HAVE BEEN BETTER FOR SOME TIME.

I RECENTLY LEFT MY FAMILY AND BRANCHED OUT TO A LOVED ONE UNTIL I COULD GET MY OWN THOUGHTS IN CHECK. I HAVE READ FOR YEARS OF THE AMOUNT OF DAMAGE THAT CAN BE CAUSED BY STRESSED TO A PERSON WITH MS. I LEFT THE STRESS BEHIND. WELL, YOU WOULD THINK MY PROBLEMS WOULD HAVE BEEN ALLEVIATED, BUT I THINK I STRESSED MYSELF MORE FROM WORRYING ALL THE TIME. THAT WAS MARCH 26TH AND TODAY IS JUNE 16TH, I AM IN A BETTER PLACE, BUT.....

WHAT DO YOU DO WITH ALL OF THE LOVE? I MEAN IT'S NOT LIKE YOU CAN TURN IT OFF TO COME BACK TO AT A LATER DATE. IT IS ALL STILL HERE. THE LOVE, LAUGHTER, PAIN, SADNESS AND ALL OF THE OTHER EMOTIONS ARE STILL THERE. I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO SOMETIMES. I PRAY A LOT AND IF IT WERE NOT FOR GOD, I HONESTLY DON'T KNOW WHERE I WOULD BE. I KNOW THAT'S WHAT EVERYBODY SAYS, BUT IT'S THE TRUTH. I AM A THINKER AND I THINK ALLLLLL THE TIME. EVEN WHEN I AM AT REST, I THINK. THOUGHTS ARE TRULY SOMETHING. THEY CAN MAKE YOU THE BEST, MOST SUCCESSFUL PERSON IN THE WORLD, BUT THAT CAN ALSO HINDER YOU FROM BELIEVING IN YOURSELF. SO MY PLAN IS TO FOCUS ON POSITIVE THINKING WHEN IT COMES TO MY HEALTH AND LIFE PERIOD.

IT IS HOT HERE IN SC AND I NEED TO CHILL OUT MORE, BUT THERE SEEMS TO NOT BE ENOUGH TIME IN THE DAY. I CAN NOT EVEN FIND TIME TO INCLUDE EXERCISE IN MY DAY. I HAVE SET UP SPACE FOR MY TREADMILL, AN EXCERCISE BIKE AND A TV. ASK ME HOW MANY TIMES I HAVE USED EITHER ONE OF THEM. THE EXERCISE BIKE IS PROBABLY A 1981 MODEL THAT I FOUND AT A YARD SALE FOR $1.00. THE TREADMILL IS NOT THE BEST EITHER, BUT HEY IT WORKS AND ALL I HAVE TO DO IS GET ON EITHER ONE OF THEM. NOT ONCE HAVE I GOTTEN ON EITHER. NOW ASK ME WHAT I DO WITH ALL OF MY TIME - OK, I WORK FROM 8:30 to 5:00 MONDAY - FRIDAY. I DO HAVE SATURDAY AND SUNDAY OFF. MY DAD'S BEING IN THE HOSPITAL KIND OF DICTATES MY WHEREABOUTS AS FAR AS EXTRA TIME, BUT HONESTLY I DIDN'T DO A WHOLE LOT OF STUFF OUTSIDE OF WORK WHEN HE WASN'T IN THE HOSPITAL. I DON'T KNOW. I WILL START TO THINK OF SOMETHINGS THAT I WILL BE ABLE TO DO. I THINK EXCERCISING SHOULD BE A MAJOR ONE RIGHT NOW CONSIDERING THAT I HAVE QUITE A FEW POUNDS TO SHED AND THEY AREN'T GOING TO DEPART WITHOUT ME DOING THINGS TO MAKE IT EASIER FROM THEM. I LOVE TO READ, BUT IT'S LIKE I DO NOT MAKE THE TIME FOR IT THESE DAYS. THINGS HAVE GOT TO CHANGE!!! I'M LOOKING AT THE WOMAN IN THE MIRROR! I JUST ATE 4 OF 6 LANCE TOASTCHEE CRACKERS AS A SNACK IN BETWEEN BREAKFAST AND LUNCH. YAY ME. NOW WHAT IT IS 30 MINUTES OF MOVING A DAY AT LEAST. LET'S HOPE I MAKE IT TO THAT!!!