Thursday, November 1, 2012

Humbling Moments!!!

Over the past couple of weeks, there have been things that have popped up in my life that have made me oh so much more aware of how blessed I am. I sometimes get downtrodden when I think of my life and my losses. I miss my father so much. I used to be able to pick up the phone and call him. Just hearing his voice was enough to soothe my soul it seemed. The holidays are almost her and how I wish I could invite my mom out to lunch/dinner, go to a spa to be pampered and how I wish I was able to simply listen to her talk to me for hours on in.  I worry about what my future holds with MS. The things that I can not do as well anymore seem to be steadily increasing. My idea of my successful career was supposed to be so better than it is now. I was supposed to be a pharmacist or something lucrative, but now it all boils down to simple administrative work.
     But then!!!, I stopped my pity party and started to think you know what - you have a living mother whom you can spend time and talk to anytime you want, you were able to create wonderful memories with your father and he's not suffering anymore, you have life alone and you have a job. My life is no where near perfect nor is it what I planned for myself, but it is what the Lord had planned for me. Everything that I've experienced and gone through has been a building block to the wonderful me that I am. I am humbled because of the way these simple things are in my life right now at this exact monent! Thank You Lord!