Friday, May 24, 2013

If I could just remember....

Yay today is Friday! I forget that means nothing other than I've got to go to work tomorrow for me. I am happy although it is closer to having some time off from work

I've been experiencing some rough moments here lately and it is all because of my thought processes. I am a huge believer in Christ and if He said, He'll do it. You wouldn't believe based on my past actions. All week at work, I've been telling myself of the things I am not able to do. I've been playing out in my mind (sometimes even while at work - working) how bad things are going to get and how bad they are going to be when I either lose my job or quit it. I was lead to this new position by God. I am aware of that and I honestly believe it. My thinking is causing me to have doubt.. When in doubt, look to the father, right? I know through Him all things are possible and because of that, I can rejoice! Rejoice with me! Also hope, that I always remember this! I tend to forget everything these days!!!

Saturday, May 18, 2013

My life and times!

As usual, it's been quite a while. There have been some changes since I was last here. The biggest change has been that I've changed jobs. My health seems to be experiencing sporadic changes more frequently now. Thankfully more things haven't changed. It honestly seemed like there were more. LOL!

As you very well know I loved, loved, loved my old job. God led me to leave and now I work for Verizon Wireless. It truly is a great company to work for. I must be honest although, I sometimes wonder what God has in store for me because whoo! It really is going to take some getting used to. Out of 23 people who started with me on January 31st, we've only lost one person. I must be honest again and say that I was almost riding out with her. Verizon is an awesome company again I must say. We are still going through an extensive training process. I thank them for that. My MS altered mind, is taking a little longer to process some things. Don't let me mention anxiety. Oh my! I almost quit two to three times a day. Scripture helps me tremendously during those times. Other things I can't seem to remember to save my life. I must say that I trust God with everything that I am and because of that can't wait to see where He leads me.

My health here lately seems to be a bit more on a more loopy roller coaster. I've incurred loops in the past so I am aware that MS can be very unpredictable. I just seem to be seeing this more often than not here lately. I won't complain as I can still see, still walk and do so many other things that many people with MS can not. I am thankful. I am just aware that progression is real and it is happening. Much like the graying of the hairs in my head, I have to just get used to it. I did see a new neurologist. He's out of town and I think I'm going to keep him along with my main neurologist in town. He offers a lot of cutting edge information, but I think I need my doctor in town too. I don't know if this ethically right, but he didn't seem to have a problem when I mentioned I'd like to keep my old neurologist. We'll see how that goes.

All in all, I experienced change recently and am anxious to see where this change leads me. On this ride, I will just set the cruise control and enjoy the scenery. Maybe even relinquish the driver's seat for a while!