I'm at an eye doctor's appt. and it is one in which both my husband and I are scheduled for the same time. I typically have appointments alone. This wasn't a good plan. Don't like sharing the doctor. At least not in same time frame. Then there was last night. I was awakened at 3am by a family friend who was intoxicated. Terrible start to my day. I went back to sleep around 6 and had to get up at 6:35 to turn my alarm off and snooze for ten more minutes. Although in an average person's mind, this doesn't sound like anything to write home to ma about, it was about enough for me to go crazy!!!! I seldom find a reason to step outside of the box and most days I justcwant to tape the box up!!!
It has been midterm time for me all this week and a portion of last week. Wow is all a girl can say. If it had not been for the Lord! I think I lost my brain somewhere along the way a couple of weeks ago and it just hasn't found it's way back home yet. I think I will be okay when grades start coming in, but it took everything in me not to withdraw from school this semester. It has been a hard road, but I must keep looking toward the end result, right? I started telling myself that I was doing this for my dad months ago. He was such a lover of higher education and prided himself in the fact that I had a couple of degrees under my belt. He seemed thrilled when I told him I was back in school. I have mentioned here how on the day that he passed, I told him I had a paper due. He passed right at the moment that I finished my paper. That memory and the memory of how I use to tell him this is for you daddy is what got me through the last exam which was last night.
I don't know what's going on with me still yet and my doctor has said just to give it some time and come back to see him in a month as he said a lot of his patients complain of cognitive issues. That doesn't help when I am the one doing the complaining, but hopefully by the next appointment, all will be well in my head.. I hate when this happens because I am so cognizant of the fact that things aren't right. I play the brain helping games and I read a lot (as much as time allows), but I wait as my doctor tells me to do. I forget a lot and have some of my older coworkers who remind me that forgetfulness is inevitable. For them I am forever thankful as they make me smile. I just wish my forgetfulness would come when I was there age instead of my own:(. I know this sounds like a woe is me post as have my last posts more than likely, but I am okay. I am thankful for the things that have happened in my life and those that still do happen on a daily basis. It is what it is and I have a choice to make lemonade with this bag of lemons!!!