Sometimes when you don't have all the answers and you don't know what to do. You just do because you have no other choice. A while back I left my home and I started out anew on my own without the loves of my life (my husband and son (technically stepson)). I got me an apartment on the other side of town, told no one about it and started living my life stress-free. Well, fast forward to now and I think they are about to come live with me, lol. Life is truly something. I mean, of course I care about the both of them and of course my stress level has been down. I mean in a world alone, who would have stress right? I mean my parents are still a big concern of mines, but they don't directly impose stress in my life. I have spent a couple of days with my husband at my place and things haven't been so bad. I mean we laugh, we talk, we even cooked together. I know there will be an influx of dirty laundry, more dishes to wash, more groceries to shop for, but I don't seem to mind that. I actually spend about the same amount of time in the grocery store as I did when we were one big happy family. I think that's attributed to my love of food (especially ice cream). I actually thrive on that kind of stuff. The thing that I couldn't put up with is the childish behavior of my husband, the drinking and "thugging." He declares that he understands now and has made the change.Because our vows are sacred to me and the fact that I know he loves me without any doubt in my mind, I can only believe he is telling the truth. I declare that if he isn't I might make the national news, but time will tell I suppose. We have built a life together over the last 12 years and I am at my breaking point I think. I think Michael going into the hospital has had a lot to do with it too. Time will only tell with me I must forewarn because by the end of the day I may have the mindset of "Ummmm no they are not coming to my serene space to kill the peacefulness there..." Is that selfish? yes, do I know it? yes, Will it make a difference? Who knows!