WOW!

I JUST READ THIS A FEW MINUTES AGO FROM MY DAILY INSPIRATIONS GIVEN TO ME IN MY MY WORK EMAIL INBOX FROM JOEL OSTEEN AND HAD TO SAY WE GET WHAT WE NEED WHEN WE NEED IT!!1

TODAY'S SCRIPTURE
"But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint"
(Isaiah 40:31, NIV).

THANKFUL!

I HAVE BEEN BUSY HERE LATELY. MY SON IS ALSO IN THE HOSPITAL WITH MRSA. HE HAD A BUMP UNDER HIS ARM THAT WE THOUGHT WOULD EVENTUALLY GO AWAY. TO MAKE A LONG STORY SHORT, HE HAD BACTERIA IN HIS BLOOD THAT TURNED OUT TO BE MRSA. HE IS STILL IN THE HOSPITAL FOR IV ANTIBIOTICS UNTIL SATURDAY. MY DAD IS STILL IN THERE AS WELL SO BETWEEN THE TWO OF THEM, I AM ABOUT DEAD, LOL. SERIOUSLY I JUST WOULD LIKE TO SAY I AM THANKFUL FOR WHERE I AM AND WHAT I AM. I AM THANKFUL FOR THE GOOD TIMES AS WELL AS THE BAD. THE ROAD SEEMS ROUGH SOMETIMES, BUT I HAVE MADE IT OVER MANY BUMPS BEFORE SO IT WILL BE JUST FINE. I AM TIRED I KNOW THAT MUCH AND EVEN THOUGH I HAVE MS, I THINK RIGHT NOW I WOULD BE TIRED EVEN IF I DIDN'T HAVE IT. MS DOESN'T HELP AT ALL I KNOW, BUT I AM ENDURING A LOT WITH MY SON, MY DAD AND EVEN WITH MY COUSIN-IN-LAW WHOM I TOOK TO THE ER AT LUNCH(ALTHOUGH HOPEFULLY HERS WANT BE A BIGGY). I INCLUDE HER DUE TO THE FACT THAT IT IS A LOT OF HOSPITALING GOING ON IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW, LOL OR BOO HOO HOO ACCORDING TO WHEN AND HOW I THINK ABOUT IT. ONE OF MY COWORKERS TEASED ME AND SAID THAT I WAS SURROUNDED AROUND SICKNESS. SHE IS RIGHT REALLY IT SEEMS, BUT IT'S ENOUGH TO SHOW ME WHAT I CAN - DO. SO I WILL PICK UP FROM WHERE I STOPPED, CATCH MY BREATH AND KEEP ON KEEPING ON! HAVE A GREAT DAY ON PURPOSE!

The Good Life

GOOD MORNING! I AM AT WORK A LITTLE EARLY SO I DECIDED I WOULD GET SOME THOUGHTS OUT EARLY AND KIND OF SET THE PACE FOR MY DAY. IT IS ALREADY QUITE WARM OUTSIDE. I WAS OUT OF BED RATHER EARLY AND I MADE ME BREAKFAST, OPENED THE BLINDS TO MY PATIO TO GET MY FIRST LOOK OUTSIDE FOR THE DAY. MY VIEW IS NOT THE BEST AND I ACTUALLY BEGAN TO THINK ABOUT THE NEED FOR ME TO LIVEN UP MY PATIO A LITTLE. UPON FIRST MOVING INTO THE COMPLEX THAT I AM IN, I SET UP IT UP TO MY COMFORT. I HAD A LITTLE CHAIR OUT THERE AND SOME PLANTS (MY PANSIES). WITHIN A COUPLE OF DAYS SOMEONE HAD STOLEN MY CHAIR. THAT KIND OF KILLED THE FIRE THAT HAD BEEN IGNITED FOR MY PATIO. THIS MORNING IS OFF TO A GOOD START. I TALKED TO MY HUSBAND FOR A LITTLE WHILE LAST NIGHT AND WE ARE CONTEMPLATING LIFE AND REMEMBERING HOW THINGS ONCE WERE. WE ARE PRAYING FOR GOD'S WILL TO BE DONE. I MISS MY HUSBAND AND MY SON (STEPSON) DEARLY I TRULY DO, BUT YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE IT IF YOU WERE TO SEE ME IN ACTION. I DO THINGS JUST FOR ME NOW THE WAY THINGS ARE. I GO TO BED WHEN I WANT, GET UP WHEN I WANT TO, I DO IT ALL JUST FOR ME. IS THAT SELFISH OR IS IT ME LOVING ME AND NOT TAKING ANY STUFF FROM ANYONE ELSE. IS IT FAIR TO MY SON, IS IT CREATING SOME SORT OF COMPLEX FOR HIM AND HIS LIFE. WHAT IS IT? I CALL IT THE GOOD LIFE RIGHT NOW. I KNOW THAT MY HUSBAND AND SON ARE HAVING TO DEAL WITH A DIFFERENT KIND OF LIFE THAN THAT I HAVE, BUT SHOULD I BE WORRIED OR FEEL GUILTY? I DON'T REALLY KNOW AND IN ABOUT FIVE MINUTES, MY THOUGHT PROCESSES WILL TURN OFF AND I WILL SIMPLY THINK ABOUT WORK FOR THE NEXT EIGHT HOURS, BUT RIGHT NOW THESE ARE THE THINGS THAT ARE ON MY MIND. THERE ARE SOME THINGS THAT I WILL NOT SETTLE FOR. I LOVE THEM BOTH AND I LOVED OUR LIFE. STRESS IS A THING THAT MS LIVES TO THRIVE ON AND I WANT TO ELIMINATE IT ALL FROM MY LIFE. I WILL!

SOMETHING THAT HAS CAUSED ME GREAT STRESS IN THE LAST COUPLE OF DAYS NOW IS THE FACT THAT I LOST $10. IT IS KILLING ME NOT TO KNOW WHERE IT IS. I FEEL THAT THIS IS SOMETHING THAT ALL PEOPLE DO AND $10 ISN'T ENOUGH TO MAKE OR BREAK A PERSON, BUT IT IS STILL $10. I WANT TO PURCHASE A NEW SWIFFER SWEEPER, BUT REFUSE TO UNTIL MY COUPONS FROM SWIFFER ARRIVE IN THE MAIL. WELL, LOSING THAT $10 EQUALS UP TO MY SWIFFER PURCHASE. BAH HUMBUG! I HATE WHEN I LOSE ANYTHING A NEEDLE, MY WAY WHEN FOLLOWING DIRECTIONS AND ESPECIALLY THAT $10. HOPE YOUR DAYS I GOOD AS I TREDGE MY WAY TOWARD THE GOOD LIFE!!!

FEELING PRETTY GOOD

TODAY IS TUESDAY AND I AM FEELING PRETTY GOOD. NO PARTICULAR REASON. I HAVE A NEW ATTITUDE LIKE THE SONG. I DON'T HAVE ANY OTHER REASON TO BE HAPPY THAN THAT OF WANTING TO. IT IS TUESDAY AND TOMORROW IS WEDNESDAY. I AM AT WORK WITH ONLY ONE HOUR AND SEVEN MINUTES LEFT IN THE DAY. I AM GOOD. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I SHALL HAVE FOR DINNER, BUT THAT IS ABOUT THE BIGGEST CONCERN OF MY DAY. ALL ELSE I GIVE TO THE LORD AND THANK HIM FOR FIGHTING MY BATTLES FOR ME. I KNOW NOT WHAT TOMORROW HOLDS, BUT I AM THANKFUL THAT THERE IS HOPE FOR TOMORROW. THIS MAY SOUND CLICHE, CRAZY OR JUST PLAIN BORING OR DULL, BUT I AM GOOD TODAY - I AM FEELING PRETTY GOOD!

I AM STILL HERE

IT IS MONDAY ONCE AGAIN. I HAVE DECIDED TO STOP DREADING MONDAY AS BAD AS I DO AND TO START APPRECIATING EACH NEW DAY. TODAY STARTED OFF KIND OF ROUGH FOR ME. FIRST, I HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OUT OF BED. I WENT TO BED FAIRLY EARLY AND I THINK THAT WAS THE PROBLEM. YOU KNOW HOW IT IS SAID YOU CAN GET TOO MUCH SLEEP. WELL, I THINK I DID. I WAS UP IN TIME TO MAKE IT TO WORK EXCEPTIONALLY EARLY, BUT WASN'T ABLE TO. I MADE IT LIKE 12 MINUTES EARLY, BUT THAT IS NOT WHAT I WAS GOING FOR. ONCE I GET TO WORK, THINGS THAT OTHERS DO STARTED TO FRUSTRATE ME. DURING MY LUNCH HOUR I GOT INTO AN ARGUMENT, RAN LATE COMING BACK AND AM JUST STILL WOE IS ME RIGHT NOW. GUESS WHAT THO? BECAUSE OF MY NEW OUTLOOK ON SIMPLY "BEING HERE," I WEAR A SMILE ON MY FACE. INTERESTED IN FINDING OUT WHAT THE NEXT MINUTE IS GOING TO BE LIKE. IT CAN'T BE ALL THAT BAD. I AM STILL HERE SO I KEEP ON KEEPING ON WITH A SMILE ON MY FACE AND A SKIP IN MY STEP. GOD IS TOO GOOD FOR ME TO BE STRESSED, MISERABLE AND UNHAPPY IN ANY WAY. I LOVE THE LORD AND HE LOVES ME. THAT IS ALL I NEED. HAVE A GREAT DAY!!! I WILL IF I HAVE TO FORCE MYSELF TO DO SO :)!

MADE IT TO FRIDAY, NOW WHAT

FINALLY, FRIDAY IS UPON US. I HAVE BEEN DYING FOR THIS DAY ALL WEEK. WHAT SHALL I DO WITH MY WEEKEND. I FEEL PRETTY WELL - THANKFULLY. NO COMPLAINTS ANY DIFFERENT FROM THE NORMAL ONES. I HAVE ABOUT TWO BAGS WORTH OF BOOKS ON HOLD AT THE LIBRARY SO THAT WILL BE THE FIRST PLAN OF MY NEXT THREE WEEKENDS. I ONLY REQUESTED FICTION BOOKS THIS TIME. I AM USUALLY ALWAYS READING SOMETHING SELF-IMPROVEMENT TYPE. WHEN I GET DONE WITH WORK TODAY, I AM GOING BY THE HOSPITAL TO VISIT WITH DAD FOR A GOOD LITTLE WHILE. MONDAYS THRU THURSDAYS TYPICALLY DON'T ALLOW FOR A WHOLE LOT OF TIME AS BY THE TIME I GET OFF OF WORK, THE HOURS IN ICU ARE ABOUT OVER. THANKFULLY, WE GET OFF EARLY ON FRIDAYS SO I WILL GET TO SPEND MORE TIME WITH HIM TODAY THAN TYPICALLY. AS OF THE LAST FEW DAYS, I AM SEEING MORE OF HIS OLD SELF COMING TO SURFACE. I AM GLAD OF THAT. NO MAJOR PLANS OTHERWISE. I WILL VISIT HIM, VISIT MY HUSBAND AND STEPSON FOR A WHILE PROBABLY ON SATURDAY OR MAYBE EVEN TODAY AND VISIT MY DAD AGAIN ON SUNDAY. NOT A WHOLE LOT GOING ON IN THIS BRAIN OF MINES RIGHT NOW AND I AM TOO HAPPY ABOUT THAT. NORMALLY I HAVE A MILLION THINGS AND A HALF GOING THROUGH ALL AT THE SAME TIME ALL WITH THE SAME URGENCY! I AM THANKFUL FOR TODAY!

The little things!

It has been a couple of days since I have been on to write anything. There have been quite a few things going through my mind. I have been working with my thoughts so that's why I haven't written. I am in about the same place, but am working so when I work, it forces me to get back to things that I hold important to me.

This morning I had the pleasure of speaking with someone newly diagnosed with multiple sclerosis. What a wonderful conversation it was - at least for me. I don't know what she took from it, but it is amazing how much I gained from her. Each person with MS gets it in a different way than the other. I think the hardest thing for her as well as myself was the fact that others don't understand it. I was telling her how I myself feel when I go out to WalMart and park in a handicap parking space and see people behind me drive my and later get out of there car with a wheelchair. The looks on their face is that of - You aren't disabled because I don't see your wheelchair. It is amazing to me how people who are total strangers are able to be so insensitive. It is also amazing that people who care and love us most are also insensitive as they don't have the slightest clue of it all! Well, considering I am at work, I will finish this post later on, but I had to get this much out!