The Good Life

GOOD MORNING! I AM AT WORK A LITTLE EARLY SO I DECIDED I WOULD GET SOME THOUGHTS OUT EARLY AND KIND OF SET THE PACE FOR MY DAY. IT IS ALREADY QUITE WARM OUTSIDE. I WAS OUT OF BED RATHER EARLY AND I MADE ME BREAKFAST, OPENED THE BLINDS TO MY PATIO TO GET MY FIRST LOOK OUTSIDE FOR THE DAY. MY VIEW IS NOT THE BEST AND I ACTUALLY BEGAN TO THINK ABOUT THE NEED FOR ME TO LIVEN UP MY PATIO A LITTLE. UPON FIRST MOVING INTO THE COMPLEX THAT I AM IN, I SET UP IT UP TO MY COMFORT. I HAD A LITTLE CHAIR OUT THERE AND SOME PLANTS (MY PANSIES). WITHIN A COUPLE OF DAYS SOMEONE HAD STOLEN MY CHAIR. THAT KIND OF KILLED THE FIRE THAT HAD BEEN IGNITED FOR MY PATIO. THIS MORNING IS OFF TO A GOOD START. I TALKED TO MY HUSBAND FOR A LITTLE WHILE LAST NIGHT AND WE ARE CONTEMPLATING LIFE AND REMEMBERING HOW THINGS ONCE WERE. WE ARE PRAYING FOR GOD'S WILL TO BE DONE. I MISS MY HUSBAND AND MY SON (STEPSON) DEARLY I TRULY DO, BUT YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE IT IF YOU WERE TO SEE ME IN ACTION. I DO THINGS JUST FOR ME NOW THE WAY THINGS ARE. I GO TO BED WHEN I WANT, GET UP WHEN I WANT TO, I DO IT ALL JUST FOR ME. IS THAT SELFISH OR IS IT ME LOVING ME AND NOT TAKING ANY STUFF FROM ANYONE ELSE. IS IT FAIR TO MY SON, IS IT CREATING SOME SORT OF COMPLEX FOR HIM AND HIS LIFE. WHAT IS IT? I CALL IT THE GOOD LIFE RIGHT NOW. I KNOW THAT MY HUSBAND AND SON ARE HAVING TO DEAL WITH A DIFFERENT KIND OF LIFE THAN THAT I HAVE, BUT SHOULD I BE WORRIED OR FEEL GUILTY? I DON'T REALLY KNOW AND IN ABOUT FIVE MINUTES, MY THOUGHT PROCESSES WILL TURN OFF AND I WILL SIMPLY THINK ABOUT WORK FOR THE NEXT EIGHT HOURS, BUT RIGHT NOW THESE ARE THE THINGS THAT ARE ON MY MIND. THERE ARE SOME THINGS THAT I WILL NOT SETTLE FOR. I LOVE THEM BOTH AND I LOVED OUR LIFE. STRESS IS A THING THAT MS LIVES TO THRIVE ON AND I WANT TO ELIMINATE IT ALL FROM MY LIFE. I WILL!

SOMETHING THAT HAS CAUSED ME GREAT STRESS IN THE LAST COUPLE OF DAYS NOW IS THE FACT THAT I LOST $10. IT IS KILLING ME NOT TO KNOW WHERE IT IS. I FEEL THAT THIS IS SOMETHING THAT ALL PEOPLE DO AND $10 ISN'T ENOUGH TO MAKE OR BREAK A PERSON, BUT IT IS STILL $10. I WANT TO PURCHASE A NEW SWIFFER SWEEPER, BUT REFUSE TO UNTIL MY COUPONS FROM SWIFFER ARRIVE IN THE MAIL. WELL, LOSING THAT $10 EQUALS UP TO MY SWIFFER PURCHASE. BAH HUMBUG! I HATE WHEN I LOSE ANYTHING A NEEDLE, MY WAY WHEN FOLLOWING DIRECTIONS AND ESPECIALLY THAT $10. HOPE YOUR DAYS I GOOD AS I TREDGE MY WAY TOWARD THE GOOD LIFE!!!