Whirlwinds!!!

 It's my favorite time of year, but I've yet the opportunity to sit outside, drink a cup of coffee and take in all the beauty. I haven't even had time to go home and see my mom and brother and really get to take a break from my fast lane life. I love to read, but I think in the last month, I've only completed one book and it was short. I have some organizing that has been a goal of mine for months now that is still unorganized. I just can't seem to get things done.

What is it exactly that I've been doing to occupy my time so? A whole lot of absolute nothing. It's like I lose hours doing that very well. When time elaspes and I look at the clock, I am bewildered. I just can not believe I spent three hours just sitting. I wasn't deep in meditation or thinking any kind of grand thoughts. I just was sort of out of it. I most often find myself like that when I get home from work. I make it in the house around 5:15. The next thing I know it's 7 or 8! I must admit in that time of being lost, I manage to pop out a meal, straighten up a little or some over simple task, but I used to get so much more important to me stuff done. Now there's no other way to put it, I'm just lost! I guess I describe the being lost feeling as simply not aware of things. It's like I'm in an area of thoughtlessness (is that a word?). I know routines will sometimes get a person out of sync, but it is not like that. It's hard to explain.

I just look forward to getting out of this area. I have started writing down a list of daily goals that I want to accoumplish to help me do that. I also have ended my relationship with Directv as I've found tv to suck up time too.We'll see how it goes for a couple of weeks and if I will be able to relinquish my dvr. We'll see!!!